im gonna fuck you up with penis farts
im pretty sure i need to get out of my house today
after i do the dishes
i need to find a place of any kind. open mic or readings or anything because i have been dying to do some slam. i need an outlet quick if anyone can give me a name of a place that would be awesome
i hate springing ahead fucks with me all kinds of hard core
love ya all
my favorite inanimate object is a book. because any book can hold the past present and future within its spine. also they are still one of the best escapes anything (legal or illegal) can offer.
a time when i was not mad nor sad. in these terms i have learned to grow as a person and as a boy who is still learning his place in the world. i wish i could just float and be at where i wish to be but i can’t i must try and try harder to succeed every single day every single hour i live work and breath this air in this planet called earth i am not a man but a child trying to fit in mens clothing so i can fool who ever i can and i will forever be a child at heart.
so there is a reason i have been mia. my netbook got trashed by some fuckin awful malware. so i had to wipe my hard drive and install a new os (fun) so im back to running lunix (ubuntu 10 to be exact) ill write more later
imma go stumble kthx lol
SO NO INTERWEBS = SUCK
thats why no activity as of late lamesauce
i don’t think im going back to college… its just not in the cards for me anymore
so this sunday we threw a really bomb party at our house there were alot of people there and it was really awesome to see every one for like 5 minutes in a sober state of mind ( i just got off work and i showed up late but it was cool) so within about 5-10 minutes i got SUPER FUCKING DRUNK(like soooo drunk i threw up and then started acting like cristian bale because i wanted to throw up more) with in the short timeline i had a beer and 2 screwdrivers one was 50-50 oj to vodka ratio the other was 20-80 almost just sheer vodka (also i had not eaten at all that day) so i start getting pukey & stuff. i was outside with a few good people with no shoes. the ground was soo cold i wanted to go inside but jp wouldn’t let me because i was so freaking smashed so i started to actually cry about how cold the ground was and started kinda sobbing about letting me inside but they were trying to fix me and get me all kinda not That level of drunk so they gave me coca-cola which was really hard to put down and then we resorted to salt water and i started to chug that but then i stopped and kinda spit up a little and then i yelled in my batman voice “GIMMIE THE SALT WATER!” AND CHUGGED THE REST….LIKE A BOSS. any way so i finally got inside and went straight for the shower got naked (with the party still at this point really getting in to full swing) and just sat in the shower for a good 20 minutes. then after that i was feeling alot better because i threw up another 3 times and put on some pjs gave out some hi-fives and went to bed…..so thats how my sunday night went…..the next morning i was stone cold sober and i made chimichangas for my roomates and the few who slept over. epic weekend or what?
posting that squid that i promised long long ago
life will get better as we go on i will stand at this end and keep on moving i will not stop until i end my path but the paradox here is that my path will never stop i willl blaze new trails i will destroy old rotting foundations and build greater and better well suited foundations of love and truths. this is where i will begin and i won’t ever fucking stop
currently alot on my plate …..
roommate situation: interesting ( more on that later)
relationship: datin elissa till i die probably
mind: more like mind is fucked
ok there has been like on of the biggest issues recently with my roommates new dog ever since she got it i have disliked it not hated just the mild form of dislike
its this UGLY looking thing thats just is like a very large and dumb as shit rat. ICK
any way so i have had issues with said roommate because i have come to learn that i can’t deal with living with her. she kinda makes me feel like shit for one and for 2 she is just strange and a tad bit more uptight that what i would find in a uptight person i can get along with. yeah….. strange bitch be triflin’. and also i can’t keep to myself so i have to be a weird son of a bitch and just try to be in every ones business. why? you might ask. have you met me? i am one strange as hell mother fucker.
work is very blah but its getting along that’s for sure can’t wait for black friday will be lots of fun and also more hours during the holidays so yeah thats good.
my mind is shot in so many directions about what to do with like i have been feeling how do you say “ka-put”? but yeah i just feel like i am stressing myself out way too much. if any one has talked to me within the last few days. please tell me if you saw something wrong because if its evident that people can see that i am not doing so hot i AM not do that great at ALL… please just i think i need to talk to some one most likely my shrink but yeah support should help right now i miss every one
really do i miss my youth and my past and all my friends really i think im depressed because i cant figure out or pinpoint reasons why i dislike dog and stated roommate ……fuck you roommate you know who you are. you made me sad and therefore i shall make you more sad because i should not be sad i should be feeling like top dog which i know i am but yeah i should stop typing and pst this god damn thing already….. fuck there
good night and good luck
PS im posting that squid soon i finished it and forgot about it sorry
imma workin on a spotted squid hope you like it
Kurt Vonnegut” —
why do i really do this to myself i like to have so many blogs but then again i don’t have any time for them maybe i can keep this one for good HAHAHAH
yes it shall happen indeed